TED演讲之现在或永不 我为什么划船横渡太平洋(2)
Now, some of you might be thinking, “Hold on a minute.
在座的有些人现在一定可能在想，“得了吧。
She doesn’t look very much like an ocean rower.
她长得一点也不像个横渡大洋者。
Isn’t she meant to be about this tall and about this wide and maybe look a bit more like these guys?”
她是不是长得这么高，或者这么强壮，是不是和这些家伙们有那么一点相似呢？”
You’ll notice, they’ve all got something that I don’t.
大家看得出他们具备的一些东西我的确没有。
Well, I don’t know what you’re thinking, but I’m talking about the beards.
我不知道大家心里想的是什么，我是指我没有他们那样的胡子。
And no matter how long I’ve spent on the ocean, I haven’t yet managed to muster a decent beard, and I hope that it remains that way.
无论我在大洋上渡过多长时间，我依然无法让自己拥有他们那样的漂亮胡子，我希望还是保持原状吧。
For a long time, I didn’t believe that I could have a big adventure.
在很长一段时间里，我都无法相信自己可以去冒险。
The story that I told myself was that adventurers looked like this. I didn’t look the part.
我所认为的冒险，就是这些人所做的。看上去我不适合这样的冒险。
I thought there were them and there were us, and I was not one of them.
我曾经觉得我们和他们是两种人，而我不能成为他们中的一员。
So for 11 years, I conformed. I did what people from my kind of background were supposed to do.
所以在11年里，我默守陈规，我完成了我这个背景的人应该做的事情。
I was working in an office in London as a management consultant.
我以前在伦敦的一间办公室里，作管理顾问的工作。
And I think I knew from day one that it wasn’t the right job for me.
我想我从工作的第一天就知道这份工作并不对我的心思。
But that kind of conditioning just kept me there for so many years,
但是那份工作的丰厚待遇还是让我从事了多年，
until I reached my mid-30s and I thought, “You know, I’m not getting any younger. “
一直到我三十四、五岁的时候，我意识到，“是啊，我已经不再年轻。”
I feel like I’ve got a purpose in this life, and I don’t know what it is,
我知道我的人生当中还有追求，但我不知道是什么，
but I’m pretty certain that management consultancy is not it.
我十分确定的是，管理顾问工作绝不是我追求的目标。
So, fast forward a few years. I’d gone through some changes.
几年的时间转瞬即逝。我也经历了一些改变。
To try and answer that question of, “What am I supposed to be doing with my life?”
我认真思考回答了这个问题，“在我的人生里，我到底最想做什么？”
I sat down one day and wrote two versions of my own obituary, the one that I wanted, a life of adventure,
终于有一天，我坐下来为自己写了两种不同的讣告，一个是我想要的，是充满了冒险经历的一生，
and the one that I was actually heading for which was a nice, normal, pleasant life,
而另一个则是按照我现在的生活轨迹所能达到的，一个享受正常、安逸、舒适生活的一生，
but it wasn’t where I wanted to be by the end of my life.
而在我生命终结时，后者并不是我想要达到的目标。
I wanted to live a life that I could be proud of.
我希望拥有一个我为之自豪的一生。
演讲简介：
两年前，罗兹·萨维奇辞去了她在伦墩的高强度工作，变身为一名划船横渡海洋的人。她曾独自一人横渡了大西洋，而本周她又将启程开始独自划船横渡太平洋的第三个阶段，她将是完成此壮举的世界第一位女性。她为什么要这样做？听她讲述其背后的深层个人原因及迫切的行动理由。